I’m not gonna lie. This past week has been hell. There is no other word for what our family has gone through, and I’ve come here several times to try to express what’s going on, but have been unable to get even the most meager of ramblings to make sense. With Mom and Dad they had both been sick for awhile, even though Mom’s passing so soon after Dad I think knocked the feet out from under all of us.
Kevin though… none of us expected it. There was no warning. There was nothing leading up to. Just a sudden… loss. A sudden absence. A void. We hadn’t spoke in a couple of years. A stupid argument over a scrap of cloth. There’s no way to go back and fix that. There’s no way to go back and say I’m so sorry. I miss you. I miss you picking on me and making jokes and telling me not to worry about it when Mom got in a mood. I miss knowing that no matter what, you’d always be there.
Kevin will always be my brother, despite the fact that we didn’t get to make up, and I wish there was something anything I could do to go back…
For now, all I can do is hold this lesson. No matter what it is, don’t let angry words come between you and your family. You don’t know when the next time is that you’ll get to see them. If you’ll get to say I’m sorry. Or if that chance will never come. Hold close to your families. If you love them don’t let anything come between that.
Our family has been left devastated by this loss of a brother, a husband, a father, a son, and an uncle who loved making other people laugh and smile.
If you can, if you come across this blog, I ask that you click on the link below to help us pay for the funeral expenses, and if you can’t… can you please share? That’s all I can do for his wife and son.